Ending of summer.

awe, summers ending slowly. i can even feel it in the breeze (: but this summer has been satisfying to me, in a way i wish some drama didn't happen, but it did anyway (x but cheers to a new year, with a new mind and a new approach. i'm pretty excited for soph year, i don't wanna jinx myself but i have good vibes about this. summer ending makes me sad though, this was packed with it's good memories, and bad as well. but still, this was a life changing summer for me, that's fersure. ooh, and just when i think summer had it's bad ending, "someone" comes along my way and turns it around. but he just has no idea he did. and hopefully, as the year moves along, that'll progress. i hope... (: hehe. cause in all honesty, i have good vibes about chu too boyyyy. but you just don't even know it, at all.

but anyways, i'm not gonna update on this anymore. maybe one day i'll come back, haha i guarantee i'm gonna come back in like december and laugh at myself with these posts. but hey, this is exactly why i do them. to look back and smile :) goodbye blogspot, you've been good to me :) haha.

Impossible

I never thought once in the 2 and a half years we shared it would come down to this. All that I replay in my head is the thought of how it was impossible to separate us. It was impossible to be without each other. Now, it's impossible to be with each other. I don't worry too much anymore, but I can't help but still wish it didn't go this way. What happened to us coming up after every fight, every break up ? What happened to the fact that we actually wanted to keep our relationship strong. We've become so weak, you don't even wanna try anymore. I still remember how the strength of our relationship meant so much to us. I still can clearly remember smiling to you, to myself, or to anyone explaining our relationship as "thru thick & thru thin". What the ef happened ? I miss that way too much. It's clear as water, I still miss you but then again, I can't. Because you're not the same. You don't even try. I only miss it when you & I would fight together to make sure we were still strong & happy. We disagreed to agree. Not agree to disagree. I'm nowhere near sure, I'm lost to what's happened to us. I know, we're both living our lives, doing what we do. You're doing you & I'm doing me. Yeah, I know that already. I'll be fine, just needa' let go, that's all !

"now we disconnected, i thought we was different be we
aint no acception. late night texts' keep us arguin'. used to be
running through my mind, now you're joggin'. now your just walking,
footsteps lightly; till they start to fade away and all i hear i silence.
fuck every here and there but i feel no attachment. used to be a
mazing, dont know how that happened. used to say i love you, and i
would really mean it. now im just sitting thinking trying to comprehend
the meaning"
Heartbreak Collision - Dolla

a different kind of pain.

i`m back in this game again , and i always get hurt . wtf ? seriously . i can only take so much . it`s getting annoying , but i`m still upset . i regret it , but as far as i see it i could`ve either let you continue to make me feel unappreciated it , or just let you go . idk if you learn , you`re always gonna be the same stubborn boy i`ve known since 3 years ago . but all i know is you`re something . this relationship for once in a long ass time (& i mean long) actually meant to much to me , weird enough . this one actually got me believing this was it , it felt right . still does , but you always gotta do something don`t you ? just that special something . i`m out . " i mean shit , i`m only 15 & a perfect couple only exists in a dream "

too much !

has happened from when i last updated . la la la , too lazy to put into words and my computers still broken . and NOW , as of yesterday i`m celly deprived because it finally broke in half on me . now , i have to wait like 2 weeks . but on the plus side , i can get a brand spankin` new phone , cos mother said my plan expires on the 25th . YAAAY ! (: i`m so happy . hmm , summer`s been pretty darn good . that`s all i can say , summer 09 is treating me fairly well . almost over tho , and sophy year here i come ! updated whenever . oh and i`m attempting to save for a laptop . note , attempting . HAHA . payce !