"Sometimes love comes around, and it knocks ya down.."

Just get back up, when it knocks ya down. Yee :) Haha whatever tho, I'm getting fed up with this bullshit. I wanna say screw what I said in the last post, but that'd be too mean & not fully true. You make it hard for me to really have hope in us, as if you're always up and down with me. Some days you like me, some days you don't. Do I deserve that shit? Naaaw, I'm too good for games. So our status is whatever to me, 'cos sometimes you be trippin'. I like you yeah, but seriously now, what the fuck -_______- I had a life without you for 3 months, no way am I gettin' sucked up into the life of shattered hope. I hope, sometimes, guys weren't suck dicks. I know you all agree HAHA. But that's the jist of life. I don't wanna be here anymore. Days like these won't last forever. You'll be in college and I know you'll eye someone new. I just know, thats who you natrually are no matter what shit you say to me. & regaurdless, I'll never know. So that's why I'm giving myself a heads up now, so when the time comes, I can brush it off. I'm flying solo, still awaiting patiently for a someone to give my heart to and knowing they won't break it into pieces. Trust, loyalty, and honesty. Word.

I can't wait to start my MAC palette! :) Hopefully I'll be successful in depotting eyeshadows, I ain't gonna waste 14.50 and then end up shattering it. Man, I've become a MAC addict. Although, summer has made it's way and I stopped wearing foundation. Too heavy,when I don't need coverage. I've been using a tinted moisturizer, which has basically no coverage, good for the skin. It's basically like a mositurizer 'cept with a tint of your skintone. I just needed something super light and can even out my skin tone :) No foundation. Yay! I'm just about to fill out an online application to work at Rita's. I NEEDA JOB. Hopefully they hire me, yadiiiiiiig. I-N-D-E-P-E-N-D-E-N-T :) Haha. Nah, but once I get a steady job I'm finally gonna get me a Hello Kitty Debit Card in Bank of America :D Sooooo excited!