Gonna do my own thing, I'm flyin' solo.

"Gonna learn from my pain, never explain, do it my way,
that's what i say."

I can't believe this. I can't. Just when I learn to love and give you a chance again, something pops up. Sometimes I question God why the heck this always happens to me, why can't anything just stay put at being good. It all hurts so bad, for countless of reasons. The main one is for 3 months, I suffered, I cried, everything, just to reach a point of being okay again. When I finally did, life became easier. Then you come back, starting over, and I gave in only because my heart kept telling me to go with it. Plus living with grudges only makes you angry everyday, gives you something to be pissed about when you wake up, tense muscles. Forgiving gives you ability to smile, and have a stress free life. & so I did. Things were going so well, so nice, I finally thought this could work. It was the last chance I gave it. And of course, it gets screwed up. I'm beginning to see that it probably means something now. I'm fucking dissapointed at you, and myself. I just hate how I was so excited, looking forward to starting over. I should face it, what we had is what we had, it's time I move on. To someone who actually is right for me, won't stoop so low on my ass. Like freal! Wtf is that. You just don't understand what you've done, you don't yet. You're just a blurr to me now. I can't even picture myself with you anymore. All my hopes, happiness, and excitement of doing so just went down the drain. Incest. And you lil' girl same thing for you. Damn, both of you are fucked up in the head. What makes it worse is I know what you really did. No matter how much you're tryna' come off you didn't do shit, I'm wiser than that. I saw it for myself, my proof is right in front of me. Fuckin' fed up with liars. I mean yeah, I hate cheaters, but when you're already caught, have common sense and at least be somehow good and just admit what you've done. Just seriously now, I'm fuckin' fed up with liars. Fed up already.