Blurry vision.

I still can't believe what went down, I'm still disappointed that I've gotta do what I gotta do now. Sometimes you're scared to back out alone, but it's whatever, cos this is seriously messed up. I'm still hurt, really hurt matta' fact, that I had this clear vision for you & me. When I say I gave it every last I had in me, I really really did. To think you were serious this time too. Surprisingly I slept like a baby last night, thank God! Shooooot. Hah. You say you've changed, and you're still in the process of a "better you", but all I wish was you actually did try when we had a chance. Turn back to last summer, where you said the same words, & when I actually still had my heart open for you. Now it's so hard, even impossible, everytime I think of you it literaly hurts. This is the first time I felt this way, frrreal. Even in those three months I was still able to think about you, smile at our memories, laugh at reminiscing. Now I can't even bare to, the vision of you & her, damn, wtf, I feel so cheated on for some reason. I can't even bare to think how it all went down, how you acted, what you said to her, how you felt at those moments, WOW seriously -_____- Whatevs, it's all so pointless to me now, if SHE could get you, then wtf was I. It's all bull, honestly. Just a third wheel I was is all, the girl who was nice enough to always give you her heart no matter how many times it was only you who broke it and abused it. Now I've had it, I'm done, I can't stand it anymore. To top it off, you DON'T change when it mattered to me most. I don't get it, whatev. Whatever, I don't care anymore. Lates.

http://www.myspace.com/671preach
Don't You Remember - Preach ft Lino
nonstop listening, for the ending is my favorite.
if only someone could download it into playlist! haah -_-
wow i'm a dork.

"It's all just a buncha' bullish"