'Cosa you. You always keep me thinking about what has happened, whats going to happen, what will happen, and the list goes on. For awhile, I've been able to just sleep on it. Just sleep, and it's a few hours of escaping the world. But just last night, I HAD to hear what you said to MY bestfriend. Truthfully, idgaf what you do and how you handle your business. Just do yourself & I a damn favor, if you don't feel how you used to feel, seriously, keep it to yourself. I think you pulled a dumbass move, we all know you went around with some new chick for awhile, it was pretty clear to me you didn't like me ever since THEN. So what makes you think you can just make it clear now?! "Haha ye, I don't like Angela anymore though". Ha-ha-ha. Yeah it hurts, but it's something I've known, but in a different matter. I don't need you to be tellin' my best that shit, 'cos you KNOW she's gonna tell me. What's your intentions buddy? WHAT?! You're like a pest, buzzing my damn ear. Annoyance. I still feel for you, quite honestly. Hearing what you told her, caused me to run on 5 hours of sleep today. You know that?! Hell no you don't know that. You ain't got a clue the hell you put me through, seriously. If you don't "like me anymore", so be it, I'd like to say you're just so aggrevating. You tell my friend, "I still have strong feelings for Angie". Then it's, "I don't like Angela anymore". I SWEAR kid. You're on my last nerve. If that's the final verdict, so be it. But from my side, here's how it goes. You & I, have been through too much bullshet together. I know we don't think about it on a daily basis, but if you could only sit in your room and remember how we met. How we got together 2 and a half years ago. How we'd find ways to see eachother. Or how we even got aqquainted to one another. Yeah? I know. I don't always take all that into consideration either. But I remembered everything last night, 'cos SOMEONE wanted to hear our story. So I was like, whatevs', it's all in the past, it doesn't hurt to tell a story. But here's what gets me.
I never once thought in the future, I'd be telling the story in the senario that you & I are done. I always thought I'd be re-telling it with smiles, laughter, 'cos we'd still be together. But naw. I had to tell it in a way, of just looking back at a memory, a memory that can't continue. & that's what pisses me off. THAT'S what causes me to lose sleep at night. Everything that has to do with you. Everyday, for the past 3 months, I've been stuck on the fact why we went wrong. I think it was so outta line, a little too outta line, no one ever saw it coming. One of those people was me. You & I, we shared everything and had everything together. Damn. But now, why do you gotta bring me up, just to bring me back down? Why have you done that to me in the past, for as long as I can remember. Son, you confuse me. I just can't keep up with your shit. I'll be doing fine with out you, and then you have to find SOME WAY for me to hear about your ass. Seriously? You really think I care as much as I used to? Yeah, I mean, I still have these lil' feelings for you. But up at this point, now i just don't give a fuck. Ever since I found out that shit from that party of what you said about me, I've had it. I'm in a state of shock at you, still in disbelief. But I guess that's how it goes. I can't keep up with your strategic ways, your plans hidden with another plan, whatever, 'cos like I stated before, either way, you have no balls to step the fuck up to my face. That's a bit gay, dontcha' think? Ye, I think so to.. :) No more of your lovin' no more.
Yesterday was nice :) Family and more family! In laws, that is :) OTHER brother's, what is now fiance, met up with her family in Cherry Hill. Ate at Pennangs, when originally suppose to eat at some japanese place. HAHA 5 minutes before getting there, Bev (his laaady), calls him saying they're closed. HAHA my brother starts having a bf, no doubt, 'cos it took an hour drive. But we ended up havin' a nice time either way :) Then I went to Cherry Hill mall. Toldya', knowin MY ASS, I'd find my way to the mall :D And there, I got my dress which was sold out in O.C Mall. Score biiitch! SCORE :)
I never once thought in the future, I'd be telling the story in the senario that you & I are done. I always thought I'd be re-telling it with smiles, laughter, 'cos we'd still be together. But naw. I had to tell it in a way, of just looking back at a memory, a memory that can't continue. & that's what pisses me off. THAT'S what causes me to lose sleep at night. Everything that has to do with you. Everyday, for the past 3 months, I've been stuck on the fact why we went wrong. I think it was so outta line, a little too outta line, no one ever saw it coming. One of those people was me. You & I, we shared everything and had everything together. Damn. But now, why do you gotta bring me up, just to bring me back down? Why have you done that to me in the past, for as long as I can remember. Son, you confuse me. I just can't keep up with your shit. I'll be doing fine with out you, and then you have to find SOME WAY for me to hear about your ass. Seriously? You really think I care as much as I used to? Yeah, I mean, I still have these lil' feelings for you. But up at this point, now i just don't give a fuck. Ever since I found out that shit from that party of what you said about me, I've had it. I'm in a state of shock at you, still in disbelief. But I guess that's how it goes. I can't keep up with your strategic ways, your plans hidden with another plan, whatever, 'cos like I stated before, either way, you have no balls to step the fuck up to my face. That's a bit gay, dontcha' think? Ye, I think so to.. :) No more of your lovin' no more.
Yesterday was nice :) Family and more family! In laws, that is :) OTHER brother's, what is now fiance, met up with her family in Cherry Hill. Ate at Pennangs, when originally suppose to eat at some japanese place. HAHA 5 minutes before getting there, Bev (his laaady), calls him saying they're closed. HAHA my brother starts having a bf, no doubt, 'cos it took an hour drive. But we ended up havin' a nice time either way :) Then I went to Cherry Hill mall. Toldya', knowin MY ASS, I'd find my way to the mall :D And there, I got my dress which was sold out in O.C Mall. Score biiitch! SCORE :)
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