Saywhat, second chances?

Consider me a stupidfuck, I'll write that on a "Hello My Name Is.." sticker and put it on my forehead, yeah? ;) Haha, nah. But I just gotta say, I feel so stupid. Who am I to reconsider something with someone who aims to hurt me all the time. To make me feel bad, and feeds off it. To mark my every move, and note himself to do something better. Who am I to even think about forgiving someone like that. I guess you could give a second chance, but to me, second chances are only meant for those that are worth it. You talk, and talk, and talk, but you don't move or prove shit. So how am I suppose to sit here and say, he's worth it. No..you're not. You sit there and I know you aim somehow, to hurt my feelings. I don't know why, just like summer. You're sick, you really are. I've had enough honestly, you hook up with someone 2 weeks after the bullshit you put me through, give her our anniversery, you sick, sick, fuck. And yeah, you may talk, you may say things behind my back that you'd think make me smile. Sure, they make me think, but when it comes down to it, you show nothing. How am I to accept shit, if I don't see shit from you, YOUrself. I've done major thinking today to put all this into words. I can't sit here and guess your thoughts, so now, it's whatever. Do what you may please, hook up with whoever, if you think it makes me want you more, it only makes me want you less. If you're okay with that, then yeah, it's all good for you. I'm someone who believes through doing, not seeing. Easy girls may be the ones you can get the hearts of, but you already know, I'm not like that. I'm, different. Period.