It's been awhile..

Gaah? These are one of those points in life where I'm just a bit mad. Okay, really mad. It's all up & down up & down. I wish you just understood. You confuse me, as well. After all we've been through, of course I can't forget one damn thing. It's as if a new memory crosses my mind everyday. I've kept myself occupied, with friends, avoiding you, & yet it's like you come back to haunt me. There are things I know that you don't know I know, and believe me, they're not what you think. But I brush it off, yaknow? For the sake of you, because apparently you "don't care" so why would I act any different than I have been? Sometimes it's like I know you know that thing between us, but once again, I just be brushin' it off like it's nothing. I see you every damn day. Every, hella, damn day. I appreciate all the days, weeks, months, & years we've stuck together. I really do. I miss 'em as well. But you always seemed to push me away, and towards the "ending" of it, it was way too obvious. Why didn't I see it? You had to crush me one last time by saying 2 nights before, that I was the only one meant for you. Doubt you remember that, cause you cold heartedly stepped on me about 3 days later. It was the night of the play. You hugged me, looked me right in my eyes, and said every word that honestly, I took deep down under. I believed you, kid. I did. But why...f'real though. Why? Why'd you go off doing shit like that, after all you've known me, for almost 3 years, we could've made it. We could've effing made it. But you chose to take a harsh left turn on me. I was left confused. Days turned into weeks, and weeks turned into months. & here I am now. Doing this. Couldn't imagine life with you by my side, still can't believe this is real. But you know what...

If you don't give a damn, I don't give a fuck. This is why I don't give out my trust, like candy don't care to please others, and don't love so easily. It's people like you. People like you who make me realize how corrupt the world is. You've corrupted me. You just keep doing what you've been doing, keep walking right past me like I'm invisible. Cause that's what you'll get in return. Fair right? Deuces.

Oh hot damn! *Pheeewww* (: