Satisfaction

So i agree life has it's ups and downs sometimes, no doubt. I know I don't have a perfect life, of course it's filled with bullshit at times. But what I love most is I'm always learning from it, and getting stronger. Good things have fallen apart in my life at times I needed them most, or even when I didn't want them to. But they fell apart on me anyway. Later do i always end up realizing it's so better things can come together. Although, I do tend to wish certain things never fell apart. That's the way it is though, so I've come to just deal with it and suck it up. Wishing never hurts :) Still that typical wisher every time i see 11:11 on my celly :) Other than that stuff, lifes okaay dokaay. I've moved on from what I was told straight up could no longer be. I've gained some good friends back, after a long time comin' & reminisce about them good ol' days and caught up :) Nice.

At some nights I just lay down and look up at my boring beige painted ceiling and just think, "What if..?" BUT I know I should stop so then at that point I just stuff my face in my pillow and just sleep. What if thoughts have no use for me, so thats why i just put it aside. It hits me once in awhile though, just a wandering thought of what if things were different. Obviously though, it is what it is. So i just accept :) Having a difficult time always happens to everyone, it's just up to us whether we let it get the best of us. Yaknow? :) I never let it get the best of me, but I still like to vent about it haha. But I make sure it doesn't ruin who i am or how far I've come :)

Oh and Twilight is the mothafckang SHIT! :) Ohman, I loved it! <3 I wish I had me a sweetheart like Edward. I'm sure every girl thats watched it does HAHA. So cute, I honestly never planned on getting interested in Twilight. Now i see why everyone was into getting the shirts! Hit me up with one! Aha sike :) Naaaaaaah.