So so so, def.

Hahaha. Life's hit a point of satisfaction :) To admit though, things are a little rocky with a few at the moment, but somehow maybe thing will patch up. I can't stand your stubbornness anymore! You really are pissing me off. You can be sucha girl sometimes, so manipulative, so, errghhaghh! You've always been that way though. Just understand you can't make my choices for me, and you have a girlfriend so get the fuck over yourself. You shouldn't care THAT much as if you're MY boyfriend to begin with. Ya feeel me?! Just back the hell off, I only like being good friends with you, I care for you only as a friend, not anything more than that. Maybe like a brother, but never as a boyfriend. All in all, just chill, seriously. I'm sick of dealing with your shit sometimes.

Mmmmmmm. I have a dentist appointment in a few. Summers making it's lurvely way in :) Yuumm. I need to do some shopping. I need a new foundation from MAC, Studio Fix has become too heavy for me. I'm going for a natural glow, esp. since it's summer! :) & EVERYONE has seen Sephora and it's grand opening glory this weekend but me! :'( SO unfair. But I like it when they say, "it so reminded me of you and how much you'd be spazzing". HAHAHA :) What can I saaay. But THAT'S SO ON MY LIST RIGHT NOW, I gotta check our Sephora out this weekend. Somehow..SOMEHOW. It's an effing must! This weekend was interesting, cough. Late nights, that's wssup' :)

Let's just pause this moment.

I know it's been a long time since you & I have gotten anything going between us, and it hasn't even been a week we just started talking. But all I know is I'm happy that I am :) My gut feelings keep tellin' me I'm doing something right, and this is right. But even with that, I don't wanna believe it too much. Yeah, even if you do make me smile all day everydamn day. Right? Hehe yeee. But I know what happened to our last relationship, how you & I have changed our ways since then and that's good. I'm just happy you came around, it's nice when people come to their senses sooner or later. No one believed that what we had was really something, freal'. And I hate to say it but I look at all these little relationships going on & I just laugh 'cos they think they got it all going, and it makes me laugh even more when it's only one person who believes it. Whatev', I'll just let 'em learn. 

All I know is, my gut keeps tellin' me this is just right the way it's going. & I've learned never to refuse my gut feelings, & just go with them.

PS - 2 quotes I've heard these past few days that I like :)

"I'm a little scared to hold you close, 'cos I just might, never, ever, let you go"

Bring Me Flowers - Hope

And you wonder why it's not me who hugs first. Hah, kidding? Mmm.

"Wow, what an asshole!"

"Mmmnah, he's just a boy"

- Forgetting Sarah Marshall

Playa, please :)

Hahahaha. Eh :) My eyes are complete bloodshot, for I stayed up all last night mang O_O *Cough. Haha. Weird thing was I didn't feel tired at all today, and odd enough, I haven't eaten one thing at all yet. Okay, 1 piece of a strawberry poptart, but thats it! But God damn those are my favorite. MMMMMMMMMMMMMM :) Anyways. Yeah! Deng, not like me not to have an appetite, I'm freakin' myself out. Today was good, chill, same ol' same ol classes. Notes that make me fall asleep, had Amy's iPod the whole damn day 'cos it had the song I've been currently addicted to. YEAH YEAH, My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson :) Meh love <3 Dun dun dun..oh and the end of the day was quite the charm too, hahaha ;) I missed The Hills last night. Just literaly checked the MTV sched, it's on in about 30 minutes. Pheeeeeew. Missed it last night, once again. And on a last note, I think I might be switching to AT&T. To me, I'm happy, 'cos damn I love their phones seriously. Good stuff good stuff. But then some people say, "bad choice", I'm like, "screw you (;" HAHA, nah. Butchyeah, I guess. Er, I think I'm feeling hungry now. Wuh? O_o Mmmmmmmmm. Hm. MmmmMmmm. Hah.

PS - One of my random posts, ha.

Muah,
A ♥

The reason for 5 hours of sleep, & runnin' on it.

'Cosa you. You always keep me thinking about what has happened, whats going to happen, what will happen, and the list goes on. For awhile, I've been able to just sleep on it. Just sleep, and it's a few hours of escaping the world. But just last night, I HAD to hear what you said to MY bestfriend. Truthfully, idgaf what you do and how you handle your business. Just do yourself & I a damn favor, if you don't feel how you used to feel, seriously, keep it to yourself. I think you pulled a dumbass move, we all know you went around with some new chick for awhile, it was pretty clear to me you didn't like me ever since THEN. So what makes you think you can just make it clear now?! "Haha ye, I don't like Angela anymore though". Ha-ha-ha. Yeah it hurts, but it's something I've known, but in a different matter. I don't need you to be tellin' my best that shit, 'cos you KNOW she's gonna tell me. What's your intentions buddy? WHAT?! You're like a pest, buzzing my damn ear. Annoyance. I still feel for you, quite honestly. Hearing what you told her, caused me to run on 5 hours of sleep today. You know that?! Hell no you don't know that. You ain't got a clue the hell you put me through, seriously. If you don't "like me anymore", so be it, I'd like to say you're just so aggrevating. You tell my friend, "I still have strong feelings for Angie". Then it's, "I don't like Angela anymore". I SWEAR kid. You're on my last nerve. If that's the final verdict, so be it. But from my side, here's how it goes. You & I, have been through too much bullshet together. I know we don't think about it on a daily basis, but if you could only sit in your room and remember how we met. How we got together 2 and a half years ago. How we'd find ways to see eachother. Or how we even got aqquainted to one another. Yeah? I know. I don't always take all that into consideration either. But I remembered everything last night, 'cos SOMEONE wanted to hear our story. So I was like, whatevs', it's all in the past, it doesn't hurt to tell a story. But here's what gets me.

I never once thought in the future, I'd be telling the story in the senario that you & I are done. I always thought I'd be re-telling it with smiles, laughter, 'cos we'd still be together. But naw. I had to tell it in a way, of just looking back at a memory, a memory that can't continue. & that's what pisses me off. THAT'S what causes me to lose sleep at night. Everything that has to do with you. Everyday, for the past 3 months, I've been stuck on the fact why we went wrong. I think it was so outta line, a little too outta line, no one ever saw it coming. One of those people was me. You & I, we shared everything and had everything together. Damn. But now, why do you gotta bring me up, just to bring me back down? Why have you done that to me in the past, for as long as I can remember. Son, you confuse me. I just can't keep up with your shit. I'll be doing fine with out you, and then you have to find SOME WAY for me to hear about your ass. Seriously? You really think I care as much as I used to? Yeah, I mean, I still have these lil' feelings for you. But up at this point, now i just don't give a fuck. Ever since I found out that shit from that party of what you said about me, I've had it. I'm in a state of shock at you, still in disbelief. But I guess that's how it goes. I can't keep up with your strategic ways, your plans hidden with another plan, whatever, 'cos like I stated before, either way, you have no balls to step the fuck up to my face. That's a bit gay, dontcha' think? Ye, I think so to.. :) No more of your lovin' no more.

Yesterday was nice :) Family and more family! In laws, that is :) OTHER brother's, what is now fiance, met up with her family in Cherry Hill. Ate at Pennangs, when originally suppose to eat at some japanese place. HAHA 5 minutes before getting there, Bev (his laaady), calls him saying they're closed. HAHA my brother starts having a bf, no doubt, 'cos it took an hour drive. But we ended up havin' a nice time either way :) Then I went to Cherry Hill mall. Toldya', knowin MY ASS, I'd find my way to the mall :D And there, I got my dress which was sold out in O.C Mall. Score biiitch! SCORE :)

"Will you, be my girlfriend?"

Haha okay, I'm nadda lesbo. It's just I was listening to music last night, specifically "Need a Girl - Trey Songz", which is one of my most favorito songs since I heard it on the radio. But but but! I was in my own little world for a second and imagined how I'd want the guy I like to ask me out. I KNOW, I'm a cornball! HAHA. Anyways, it would be him playing the guitar to that song, and in the back ground you have people holding up signs, "Angela, will you be my girlfriend?". !!!!!!!!!!! LMAO. & of course, me, with my happy yet so surprised face, yadda yadda :D Haha okay so I know this post was outta line, just thought I'd share it 'cos it's all that crosses my mind nowdays :) Not really, it's just a thought that makes me smile. Well I'm out, lates <3

Rainy days, blah la la.

Mmmm it's to rain the whole day today. I'm home -___________- Haha that's aight, I've barely been home all week, so I haven't gotten time to help my mama out. Can't leave her hangin'! HAHA. Needless to say, I'd like summer to come now. Weeheheee :) Idk, just gotta get outta this whole school scene, sick of it! f'reaaal. Anyways, I actually love rain to be honest. It gives me a sense of tranquility. Seriously! Ahah. Damn, I'm inlove with my playlist. Nonstop listenin' all day everyday ;) If only my computer in my room wasn't virus infected, I'd be working out nonstop :D I'm losing weight gradually, I'm happy. I haven't really had a bag of doritos, cheddar cheese chips, or any shit in like, EVER. One main part of my new routine is eat breakfast, whether it's mamduke's cooking or grabbing a nutrigram bar/poptart/granola bar for school, I don't eat lunch at school unless I missed breakfast, otherwise my lunch is at home. And then dinner, if I don't forget. HA! Butchyeah, that's what it is now. I also needa' re-paint my nails, I WILL get my nails done to that bright pink, but that's for summer time. Word ;) My sister's wedding is the first day of vacation, which is good 'cos she's been naggin' me whenever I'm out, "ANGELA DON'T GET TOO DARK SERIOUSLY NOT BEFORE MY WEDDING!!!!". Aaaand, because her wedding is the first day, I'm good I'm good :) Lemmeh' see what else what else.

So, I got this "plan" for next weekend. Not neccesarily a plan, just something the devil on my shoulder hinted me about. Haaah! Sikenaw, but I got something up my sleeve. I'm only hoping it will happen, don't worry, I ain't a shady bitch :) But one thing I know fa'sure is, it ain't my fault I know the meaning of a chill time... :) La la, I'm not even positive, let's just see what goes down for the week, yeah? On the last note, going to Cherry Hill tommorrow. Uh, meeting my brother's fiance's parents, and whatever else. Knowin' MY ASS, I'm just gonna find a way to hit up that mall over there. HAHAHA! :) Whatever, we'll see eh. Oh oh oh oh oh! I plan to get this:
http://www.coastalscents.com/cfwebstore/index.cfm/product/1667_122/ultra-shimmer-88-eye-shadow-palette.cfm

An essential to every make up lover. I heard so much about it on youtube by even the BEST of make up gurus. It's just my stuck up ass has been all on MAC, only 'cos I'm super big on the quality of make up. WAY WAY too picky on that. So when I hearda' this I was like, "naw..." but I'm willing to give it a shot. Only 'cos I love how it's in a palette, I can decorate it, AAAND, super price for 88 shadows! Even better, very very pigmented shadows. Pigmentation is a big deal when it comes to shadows, I like color that shows up. Duh :) And to think, MAC'S little mini eyeshadows for $14.50 EACH!? And there's 88 of these, every color imaginable, all for about 25 dang bucks. Hell yeah I'm gettin' it! Sweet sweet deal <3

Skeet skeet!

Ah, so I know I don't update that much nowadays. Idk, I don't feel like it, I'll only update when I'm in the mood . Ha. Eh I've just been lazy and out and about. Buuuut! Quick re-cap I guess, if I can remember. HAHA.

So as mentioned in my last blog post, I've been walking home kickin' it at Ashly's. Almost this whole past week, actually :) Or we just walk home. I'm happy 'cos I DO want my mama to understand that I'll be okay haha, just walking to and back to school. As in I want her to realize it's all good she can trust me, I won't do a thing. Thing with her is she doesn't know till she lets me try. -___________- I still recall in the summer her harsh words of "I'M NEVER EVER LETTING YOU WALK TO SCHOOL OR WALKING HOME SO DANGEROUS I DON'T CARE HOW MANY OF YOUR FRIENDS DO IT YOU ARE NEVER WALKING ANGELA!!!!!" - Yeah? Haha, look now :) She needs to experience it first, now she's kinda sorta comfy. I mean I still get those worried calls or texts of, "Please call me when you get to school" or wherever I'm heading. But I ain't frontin', I call my mama wherever I'm at wherever I go, just to let her be secure. That's the mistake some people make. I know I've been a liar to her in the past, right to her face, but time has passed & things have changed, she can trust me this time. :) Oui. Anyway!



So I don't remember what happened on what days, but Ash came over, then after that we've been walkin' home going to her house. Yesterday....however..

It was a lil' something different. So I needed something from Rite Aid. "Needed". HA. Ash hates walking there, for it's "Mexican Territory" and she was super tired. SO I asked Mr. Faggot to come with me, just incase someone would jump me or something HAHAHAHA. Went home to Ashly's, changed in "disguise" (lmao), and then walked half way to meet up. Long story short, it was nice spending time with you :) Ugh, but, nah, I won't say it. You know what bothers me already. Us and our energy drinks, HAHA all you see is these 2 asians, me with my long red shirt with black leggings and ginourmous red shades, & him, just, lookin' like him, haha. Walkin' to and from Rite Aid, oh wait, but stopped at Bombay! HAAAH!!!! & then me holding my big ass can of Monster. >:) Muwahaha. But yet, I know the deal, yeah yeah yeah, sucks though. I'm very for the fact that I know I can make you laugh whenever needed :) Whatevs'! It is what it is, surely. But it was nice.. :) :) Love ya kiddo, ha. Sikenaw.

Then today, yet again, walked to Ashly's just to do her hair for her BLD thingy, WHICH I was suppose to go with, BUUUUT Ashly's mom is comin' home late from work so there goes my ride. Ashly's ride is full of that family, but I don't know those people anyway. Haha I'd rather not 'cos it'd be akward. Wah, but I was suppose to go tonight >:( S'aaaall good though, haha. Then mama said gotta go to sista sista's house for the night. So, yeah. I'm honestly too lazy to type more, just did this quick 'cos I know I needed to update somehow, ahah. Mmmmmmmm I'm out, tooodles! :)