Monday, June 8, 2009

That's what I get

When I let my heart win. "Woah oh ooh oh oh"
Hahahaa :)

Nah. But I've come to some of my realizations. Sometimes, following your heart is just coming from missing someone, or missing a significant other, or missing what used to be. That's why you feel like your heart is yelling at you, saying, "go back to him, he's the one" - wrong. Technically, what your heart is really doing is it's not accustomed to being by "itself", or loved by somebody else. That's basically what I've learned.

I haven't been with a lot of guys, I choose not to for my various and true to self reasons. I don't like giving my heart to just anyone, sure, not necessarily "hard to get", that too, but just the fact that I don't wanna just hand it like nothing. I do have respect for my heart, 'matter fact. I've only been with a few, 1 I can say that actually felt real for a long moment in time. Now, I'm solo, mmmmm. Truthfully tho', I really want someone. Okay, that comes out weird for me, I just want them goodlovin' times. No, not some boy who just wants me for my goodies, not a boy who does all he does just to get in my pants, no. Someone with real lovin'. I've got a lot to offer, only for one whose up for it. Then again, I'm just fine being alone, waiting for the right person will be worth it somehow later on. At least I'm thankul, throuhought this past year I've learned to satisfy myself, be by myself, not needing any guy to make me happy. But still, it'd be nice, yeah? No doubt every girl wants a sweet boy, honestly. It's just this society has become so accustomed to the assholes, it's like girls are starting to accept it 'cos it's like, "Eh what the heck, guys won't change might as well just forget it" - but I'm good thanks. Honestly, I just want a relationship like my sister has. Random much! Haaha :) Nope, but I am really inspried by her and her hubby, I look at them and wish one day I can have what she has. Cheesy much?! :D Hahahahahaha wow I'm corny. But it's true! Oh, Lordy :) Whatever, for now I'll just sit tight, live my life accordingly, & whatevs. Deuces <3

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